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Post of The Month (July)

Aidan is our Post of The Month winner voted by the community for the following post:

"Hey Lucie,

You say you're still on medication and have had lots of therapy? Maybe it's a matter of revisiting old coping techniques and anything else like that, that therapy taught you?

And Drea is absolutely right! Even someone with everything material that they could ever want isn't insusceptible to mental illness. Any sex, race, age, class; it doesn't discriminate...
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    Why does it hurt so much? (This may trigger some feelings)
    I literally feel like I have no energy & liike someone has literally came & take all my blood out of me. One minute I feel nothing and trying to trigger myself then the next im so angry and emotiional . & I say it literally feels like a lot of energy to form words & speak to people but then I find the energy to tell them to shit the fuck up and trash my room.
    I can't cope with this. I feel like i need to be so distant with everyone to aviod anything & feel like im being self centred.
    I'm finding comfort in hungry pains or shity unhealthy foods
    I feel numb & then feel everything at the same time in a short period.

    I'm blocking people and i have no idea why. They are just being nice. I tried going to college but I can't. I tried doing what i can but can't. I'm not going to do anything. Im just going to mess uo my life and my relastuonships so i have nothing to live for and reason to just die. Because none of this matters in the end
    I domt how to cope. I feel literally sick
    Last edited by Shaunie; 17-05-2017, 11:34 AM.
    The first step towards getting somewhere is to decide you are not going to stay where you are

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    It doesn't matter. I can't tell what's real and what's not.. But every one dies . One minute someone's here the next their not. I don't get it. Whats the point in longing out the emotional pain and living if we're gone so fast. Theres no point.
    This is just a game or a test and nothing is real. It doesn't matter. Hell sounds more appealing then this
    The first step towards getting somewhere is to decide you are not going to stay where you are

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    • #3
      Heya Shaunie,

      Reading your post through, I really get the feeling that you're super worn down?

      Emotional and mental exhaustion can have such an adverse effect on us and quite often leads to feeling 'numb' as you describe. When we're in that sort of place, it can also make us feel a bit more sensitive (I realise that contradicts what I said before, but bear with) to certain things. Like where we might usually process those feelings and thoughts naturally through the day, if we're fatigued then it's natural to stop doing that and things can build up. Then, as you say, we can reach a tipping point and end up having outbursts towards people and venting that anger and upset in very brief but intense moments.

      I can't truly empathise, but grief is a difficult process and, as with a lot of things, there's no right or wrong way to feel or to deal with it. If you don't mind me asking, is there someone you've lost recently?

      Props for talking about it - you're probably doing brilliantly. We're always here.
      'Oh, you can't help that,' said the Cat: 'we're all mad here. I'm mad. You're mad.'

      'How do you know I'm mad?' said Alice.

      'You must be,' said the Cat, 'or you wouldn't have come here.'

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      • #4
        Hey Mike

        Thank you. Does make a lot of sense. And worn down definitely is the right word. I feel like the moments are getting more intense and feel like im getting more fragile quicker. Which doesn't even make sense because then less is built up?


        Yeah- and grief is a very painful process. But people aren't understanding I'm fine if they would leave me alone when i want to be left alone even just fir a hour. And not constantly speaking at me.
        The first step towards getting somewhere is to decide you are not going to stay where you are

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        • #5
          Hey Shaunie - how are you getting on? Managed to get a bit of that space you were looking for?

          'Oh, you can't help that,' said the Cat: 'we're all mad here. I'm mad. You're mad.'

          'How do you know I'm mad?' said Alice.

          'You must be,' said the Cat, 'or you wouldn't have come here.'

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          • #6
            I dont even know how I am.

            Unfortunately. Dont feel like I've had any space. Whereever I look there's someone In my face and in my personal space

            I really dont know what is wrong with me. I'm so messed up and weird.

            I dont what this is but doesn't feel like depressionalisation. Butt everything feels so fast and it's really too much that it's making me so angry and frustrated iwth everyone. I feel like there's something wrong with my nerves or something? Like my body is not connected with my brain. And people are speaking toooo fast at me that - I can't process what they are saying to me .

            Id be sitting down and will flinch like In one of those weird dream like a falling sensation. But in real life . But obviously not falling cause sitting down. And like my body feels out of proportion. Or something wrong with my eyes. And then like sometimes id be sitting there and feel like things are moving away from me but cant do anything about it. Either that or things are getting smaller. Its not an outer body experience because it feels so real. Like im actually there and actually moving?.probably not the best place to write this.

            But what the fuck is wrong with me. I've tried to Google it but some things I cant find and says anxiety but i dont feel anxious and dont feel out of my body. Maybe lack of sleep I dont know but feel messed up.
            Last edited by Shaunie; 28-05-2017, 01:52 AM.
            The first step towards getting somewhere is to decide you are not going to stay where you are

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            • #7
              Why do the little amount of people i have in my life. Leave or choose to leave me. Its just a horrible Sinking empty feeling. And a stab in the chest.
              The first step towards getting somewhere is to decide you are not going to stay where you are

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              • #8
                Hi Shaunie,

                How are you feeling today? I'm sorry you haven't been able to get the space you need. It sounds like that makes dealing with your emotions quite difficult. But you're not messed up or weird. A lot of people feel emotions that they don't know how to explain or the cause of. In fact, it seems like you are doing quite well at explaining what it is you are feeling, even if you don't know why you are feeling it. The community and the boards are always here if you need to talk.

                Chat soon!
                -Kathleen

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                • #9
                  Thank you Kathleen.


                  Originally posted by Kathleen View Post
                  Hi Shaunie,

                  How are you feeling today?
                  Really Shit but im still breathing & alive. I've got all my arms, legs & a roof over my head - and all that . Something over nothing - with my first world small problemss.
                  The first step towards getting somewhere is to decide you are not going to stay where you are

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