I literally feel like I have no energy & liike someone has literally came & take all my blood out of me. One minute I feel nothing and trying to trigger myself then the next im so angry and emotiional . & I say it literally feels like a lot of energy to form words & speak to people but then I find the energy to tell them to shit the fuck up and trash my room.
I can't cope with this. I feel like i need to be so distant with everyone to aviod anything & feel like im being self centred.
I'm finding comfort in hungry pains or shity unhealthy foods
I feel numb & then feel everything at the same time in a short period.
I'm blocking people and i have no idea why. They are just being nice. I tried going to college but I can't. I tried doing what i can but can't. I'm not going to do anything. Im just going to mess uo my life and my relastuonships so i have nothing to live for and reason to just die. Because none of this matters in the end
I domt how to cope. I feel literally sick