Now im really hungry again and ive had a slice of toast and honey, which I only ate as it was the only thing i could even vaguely feel like eating, but now im still hungry but i just dont fancy ANYTHING. Things just dont taste that great. They taste the same as ever, but im just not getting any pleasure from it, so would rather not bother.
The other thing is, I keep thinking, hey, I wonder if ill go below 8 stone.
I do go through bulimic phases sometimes, but its not been that bad lately. I did do it a few times a few weeks ago, but not at the moment.
This is a bit unusual for me, as ive always thought id make a really shit anorexic because i just love food, but i dont want to force myself to eat, because then i wont be able to see whether i can get under 8 stone.
Im not sure why im writing this really
Am i fucked up?