I know I can always turn to you for support and help
I'm having a really hard time at the moment and I'm really really struggling a day dosnt go by now where I'm not hurting myself or having suicidal thoughts things are really really hard .. I hardly get any sleep now and if I do I cry myself to sleep and wake up after a little while sweating and crying..
I've got the most amazing friend and she's helping me a lot I just wish I didn't dump all my issues on her cause in reality I know it must be tiering she's the only one around me that I can trust with everything.
On Friday me and my partner when to the local sexual health clinic and he got a sexual health test and I got the implant the same time ( I wasn't tested ) but since than we have drifted apart so much and if now feels like we are strangers and I don't know what to do .... I wrote him a long text message putting my heart on the page and all I got nothing back I just don't know what's happened.. could it be test results or something else it hurts soo much
Things are going downhill and it's making me feel like life isn't worth living anymore and I don't know what to do