It sounds like you're going through such a difficult time at the moment, and it's okay to feel like you're not sure if your making the right decisions anymore. Sometimes the decisions we're faced with can be really difficult to make. It's important to remember that no choice may feel completely right and that's okay.Have you been able to reach out to anyone outside of The Mix about how you're feeling?
How are you getting on, Evie? I know you're going through a lot at the moment, and we're here if you ever want to talk things out.
My body is crashing. It's been pumped full of so many different pain medication and so much different antibiotics and anti d because of my blood type. My body can't handle it. I've become so fragile and weak..
Oh gosh. That does not sound pleasant, to say the least. Are you in hospital right now or resting up at home?
A couple of things that might be worth a read (if you haven't seen them already) are our articles on dealing with and recovering from an abortion. Give yourself the time you need to process things; be with your feelings and let yourself grieve.
"You're familiar with the phrase "man's reach exceeds his grasp"? It's a lie: man's grasp exceeds his nerve."