I've been spending a lot of time by water, and in woods and around bridges and I'm scared to as why. I know I feel so hopeless and pointless right now. Could that be the reason?
My family are completely obviously to everything that has gone on. They have no clue what's happened at uni, they have no clue about the well being meetings, the haven't been going to uni, they have no clue to how I'm feeling and I can't say because I'm not around long enough and they have enough stresses.
Every evening since I've been home, I've sat and watched the trains fly past on the tracks outside my house, questioning if I made the right choices in life, how I got to this point and why me? Why did my well being and my life have to fall apart as much as it has...and why can't I lift myself from this.