We've had our problems, but this came out of the blue. He was meant to be coming round this weekend. Monday we planned what to eat so I could buy stuff from the supermarket, Tuesday he said he was looking forward to cuddles and Wednesday he said he'd bring another one of his tshirts for me. Thursday I'm dumped.
He's done so much to hurt me, but I can't be angry. He dumped me back in March and then slept with someone 1 week later. He tried to break up with me over the summer shortly after I found out my dad was ill (similar circumstances - day before he was meant to be coming to mine for the week). Afterwards he promised me that he wouldn't hurt me like that again - tell me that things were not good so we could talk about it. I'm angry with myself. He said he loves me and that I made him happy but he wasn't happy with us. What is so wrong with me? What makes me so poisonous that means I can't be with anyone?
This is just the last straw really. I don't know how I can survive the next week. I doubt I'll go back to uni. I'm on the train home now. I don't have any friends. My housemates are nice sometimes but a lot of the time they make me feel worthless - cancelling stuff we've planned to do stuff with other people etc. I don't think anyone enjoys my company. My boyfriend doesn't even want to talk to me again, just me being around is bad for him. I shouldn't be here, I make everything worse for everyone.