School helped so much, because it meant I actually had to leave the house, I had to wash my hair and get dressed in the morning, I had to look presentable... now I just sit in my room all day, on my own, in the dark. I have no desire to get up or do anything.
I overdosed the other day, just so I could feel something, my new meds have just turned me into a zombie.
I just don't know what to do any more, without school I have no structure and no need to get out of bed. I've been told by my psych nurse and the crisis team that next time there's a meeting with school I have to lie to be allowed back in, and they'll lie as well. But then I'm scared, if I do have a problem in school I'm not going to be able to speak to any one... the one thing I was aiming for in life was to get into a college in Brighton, and now that's not going to happen because there's no way I'll get the grades for it.
If I'm not allowed back to school for year 11 I don't know what I'm going to do