otter
18-03-2005, 11:00 PM
everytime i get stressed out or something happens and i have a personal crisis, i have problems with food.
like if i don't eat anything i feel good and focused and almost on a high, until i sort of get a bit too lightheaded and feel a bit sick... then of course i have to eat something... i can starve generally for about 4-5 days.
but if ever i force myself to eat something when i have other problems going on, its like i don't like myself for eating... like the food gives me energy to concentrate on my problems, or something. - but food in either extreme is very emotionally numbing.
sometimes i let myself get so hungry that then i end up eating lots and then my body cannot take it, so then i have to be sick.
i mean i'm not stick thin or fat... but i can only ever eat "normally" and healthily if i don't have any personal problems or stress or anything...
and i was wondering, since i am having problems at the moment, is that reaction normal or not???
like if i don't eat anything i feel good and focused and almost on a high, until i sort of get a bit too lightheaded and feel a bit sick... then of course i have to eat something... i can starve generally for about 4-5 days.
but if ever i force myself to eat something when i have other problems going on, its like i don't like myself for eating... like the food gives me energy to concentrate on my problems, or something. - but food in either extreme is very emotionally numbing.
sometimes i let myself get so hungry that then i end up eating lots and then my body cannot take it, so then i have to be sick.
i mean i'm not stick thin or fat... but i can only ever eat "normally" and healthily if i don't have any personal problems or stress or anything...
and i was wondering, since i am having problems at the moment, is that reaction normal or not???