ruby_soho
18-01-2005, 02:47 PM
So a bit of background information: After finishing my a-levels (i got a B C C, not the best results ever i know but they cant be changed now) i decided i couldn't really afford to go to uni and would rather get out there get a job etc.
So since leaving college i have basically been doing overtime at Tesco where i had worked previously for 2 years, as a short term soultion to themoney/income thing.
So fast foward to now, it's now january i have a new manage at work and they don't want me for overtime any more, which i guess is fair enough because it's after christmas and there is not as much work which needs to be done. So i'm working my contracted hours of 8 a week, which pulls in about £166 a month, apart from the fact that i do not see myself as a tesco worker as my dam career, hardly working and earning that i feel as if im taking the bloody piss out of myself. I mean if they were my expectations why waste two years at college?
Anyway lets get to the point. I was browsing the connexions website (which is more helpfull than i ever thought it would be) and i have found a job that actually sounds quite interesting, the pay is £155 a week, which isn't brilliant but you know its a bloody good start, and it is only a few villages away and 25 minutes on the bus. Excellent i thought i got quite excited reading the information. So i rang them up got the phone number for the company and then...
I'm sitting here with the phone in my hand and for some reason i can't bring myself to ring the number. I mean wtf seriously? this is something that i want, something that i bloody need and now i have just reduced myself to a nervous wreck.
This kind of thing has never bothered me before, previous interviews etc i would even go as far to say i am a fairly confident person.
Blah i'm not even sure what the point in this is really, i'm just getting increasingly pissed off with myself, theres a potential oppurtunity infront of me and i could let it pass because i've just been overcome by stupidity and complete nervousness, you know it's this kind of attitde which makes me think why would anyone wnat to give me a job afterall if i can't even manage the easy bit.
I'm not quite sure what i'm after a bit of insight/advice anything really. Hmmm.
So since leaving college i have basically been doing overtime at Tesco where i had worked previously for 2 years, as a short term soultion to themoney/income thing.
So fast foward to now, it's now january i have a new manage at work and they don't want me for overtime any more, which i guess is fair enough because it's after christmas and there is not as much work which needs to be done. So i'm working my contracted hours of 8 a week, which pulls in about £166 a month, apart from the fact that i do not see myself as a tesco worker as my dam career, hardly working and earning that i feel as if im taking the bloody piss out of myself. I mean if they were my expectations why waste two years at college?
Anyway lets get to the point. I was browsing the connexions website (which is more helpfull than i ever thought it would be) and i have found a job that actually sounds quite interesting, the pay is £155 a week, which isn't brilliant but you know its a bloody good start, and it is only a few villages away and 25 minutes on the bus. Excellent i thought i got quite excited reading the information. So i rang them up got the phone number for the company and then...
I'm sitting here with the phone in my hand and for some reason i can't bring myself to ring the number. I mean wtf seriously? this is something that i want, something that i bloody need and now i have just reduced myself to a nervous wreck.
This kind of thing has never bothered me before, previous interviews etc i would even go as far to say i am a fairly confident person.
Blah i'm not even sure what the point in this is really, i'm just getting increasingly pissed off with myself, theres a potential oppurtunity infront of me and i could let it pass because i've just been overcome by stupidity and complete nervousness, you know it's this kind of attitde which makes me think why would anyone wnat to give me a job afterall if i can't even manage the easy bit.
I'm not quite sure what i'm after a bit of insight/advice anything really. Hmmm.