Slayer_Pantera
20-05-2003, 06:10 PM
Ok, long story for you all...
About 13 months ago I met this guy through my friend. We met up, and got on really well, blah blah. We started seeing eachother 1-3 times a week... (he lived a few towns away from me, about 30 mins by train) and we got on really well and that. At the time I was going through a bit of a fucked up time, and he was really saving me from myself at the time. After about 4 months or so I found out he'd been cheating on me with some other girl... and had met up with another girl off the internet and had lost his virginity to her the first time they met. Of course he denied it all, but later in an arguement admitted he had done it.
We didn't speak to eachother for a while after that. Then about 3 months or so later I started to talk to him again, but within a few days we were fighting again. He asked me to sleep with him and I said no, and he said he'd rape me instead. He was also saying things like the only reason I hurt so bad is because I ask for it, and do it to myself, and its all my own fault. We didn't talk again for quite a while until now.
Me and my friend, who has also been a victim of his stupid ways have decided to make him pay for how he's hurt us. What he did to me changed me in a twisted way so that I don't trust anyone anymore. I'm always suspicious of guys and convince myself they're going to cheat on me. The fact is that they usually do :rolleyes: . We'll me and my friend decided to get a tough male friend to beat him up, and teach him a lesson. The only way to get that to happen though, is to convince him to come to where I live, at the train station, where I wouldn't turn up, and the guy would just beat him up for us. Cruel, I know, but he deserves it. Anyway the only way we could think of to get him to come here is if I lead him on, making him think I'd have sex with him.
So last night I started to talk to him again... and after talking to him again, I don't think I'm even over him yet... and I don't think I can bring myself to make him pay for how much he's hurt me. He's been talking about wanting to date me again, but I don't know if it's worth it... I really want to make him pay but I can't bring myself to be doing this to him. I've tried to forget but I just can't. And I can't move on because of what he did to me... and I thought maybe getting back at him would make it all better but the process of getting to get my own back is just too uncomfortable and 'painful'... after what he did to me, I don't see how I can't tell a few simple lies to him and get him to come to a train station. Arggh!! I don't know what to do :crying:
About 13 months ago I met this guy through my friend. We met up, and got on really well, blah blah. We started seeing eachother 1-3 times a week... (he lived a few towns away from me, about 30 mins by train) and we got on really well and that. At the time I was going through a bit of a fucked up time, and he was really saving me from myself at the time. After about 4 months or so I found out he'd been cheating on me with some other girl... and had met up with another girl off the internet and had lost his virginity to her the first time they met. Of course he denied it all, but later in an arguement admitted he had done it.
We didn't speak to eachother for a while after that. Then about 3 months or so later I started to talk to him again, but within a few days we were fighting again. He asked me to sleep with him and I said no, and he said he'd rape me instead. He was also saying things like the only reason I hurt so bad is because I ask for it, and do it to myself, and its all my own fault. We didn't talk again for quite a while until now.
Me and my friend, who has also been a victim of his stupid ways have decided to make him pay for how he's hurt us. What he did to me changed me in a twisted way so that I don't trust anyone anymore. I'm always suspicious of guys and convince myself they're going to cheat on me. The fact is that they usually do :rolleyes: . We'll me and my friend decided to get a tough male friend to beat him up, and teach him a lesson. The only way to get that to happen though, is to convince him to come to where I live, at the train station, where I wouldn't turn up, and the guy would just beat him up for us. Cruel, I know, but he deserves it. Anyway the only way we could think of to get him to come here is if I lead him on, making him think I'd have sex with him.
So last night I started to talk to him again... and after talking to him again, I don't think I'm even over him yet... and I don't think I can bring myself to make him pay for how much he's hurt me. He's been talking about wanting to date me again, but I don't know if it's worth it... I really want to make him pay but I can't bring myself to be doing this to him. I've tried to forget but I just can't. And I can't move on because of what he did to me... and I thought maybe getting back at him would make it all better but the process of getting to get my own back is just too uncomfortable and 'painful'... after what he did to me, I don't see how I can't tell a few simple lies to him and get him to come to a train station. Arggh!! I don't know what to do :crying: