Am i just feeling sorry for myself?

[amz]

ok...this may sound stupid but i just needed some advice.

OK...for ages i've been feeling really crap, mainly due to my weight. I went to the doctor about a year ago about something different, but instead of getting round to that, they were worried about my weight and i felt that the doctor was very criticising which was the start of it all. They gave me a blood test but found out nothing was wrong and just told me to eat more. Anyway, i'm still underweight, and i've been pretty down for ages now about it. I'll have times when im feeling ok, but then most times ill feel really bad, cant stop crying etc. I'll have weeks where i wont go out the house or do anything because i know that everytime i go out people are looking at me and criticising me, i mean..i dont blame them, but it just makes me want to just dissapear or somthing. Anyway, i didn;t think it was bad, and just thought it would pass, but its been going on for ages now, and been really bad during the past few months. I try and convince myself to just not think about it, and at night i'll say to myself "ok i'm going out tomorrow" but when it comes round to it, i'll get half ready and just look in the mirror and then go back to square one.
My family have noticed that i haven't been out in ages, and that i dont want to do anything, and i;'m sure that my friends must think i've suddenly become really boring or whatever.

The thing is, is that i cant tell my friends about it or anyone really because i dont know if im just feeling sorry myself and making a fuss out of nothing, and last time I tried to tell an old friend about my weight troubles she accused me off just tryin to get attention. I never really saw myself as depressed or anything, but im not sure anymore. No matter how much i try and tell myself just to go out with my friends and have a laugh, I cant, and if i do I just end up feeling really really lousy, and I know that everybody is constantly thinking stuff about me, and i'll just end up coming home and just sitting there and thinking bout myself and i've been crying constantly for ages, and sometimes i think im going crazy or soemthing

Anyway, sorry if i've just been speaking bollocks and sent you all to sleep but i just wanted your advice on whether or not i should maybe pay a visit to the doctors or would it just sound stupid?

I've read the help pages on depression and stuff, and I know a lot of posts like these are sent in, but to me it seems like its got worse and worse for me over the months, so maybe I should try and do something before it gets even worse?

Sorry, this is slightly embarrassing for me and i dont really want you to think im really messed up or whatever, just wanted some advice.

Thanks, Amy :confused: :(

by the way, im not looking for advice to put on weight, just about the other stuff.....:(

[Bri-namite]

Hiya

I dont think you're feeling sorry for yourself at all, it sounds to me like you have self esteem problems, probably because of the weight problem.

It's common for people with self esteem problems to get paranoid, and think everyone in the street is looking at you, and judging you, when in reality, its just not the case. So try not to think about it if you can.

Maybe you should talk to someone, these things always seem better after you've talked it through with someone who will listen.

If for whatever reason you feel you cant talk to a family member or a close friend, the Samaratins are always there. The numbers in the phone book.

Good luck.

[angelbabe]

I feel kinda similar to you, though not as bad. i get paranoid about my wieght and i hate wearing a skirt cos i think i look so skinny. lots of people comment on my weight and i dont like it. Mates get slightly jealous and say that im so thin and they wish they could be, but they dont understand that you can actually be too thin. My ex really knocked my confidence by saying that he thinks my mate is much more attractive as she has abit of fat, which means shes got something to hold onto, rather than me where im not much to cuddle. that made me feel even worse.

i dont think it would be a bad idea to go to the doctors at all. My sister went to the docs for something and they were concerned about her weight and it turns out its a thyroid problem. this means that whatever she eats is used up rather than being stored as fat. she was told to eat loads of fatty foods, particularly before going to bed at night, but it still hasnt worked. Shes 22 and 7 stone. Shes a size 6/8 in clothes.

if you feel down then its defiantely best to try and get help. you dont feel sorry for yourself at all, and you arent just being silly. That is just how you feel and within reason. hope you feel better soon:)

[BumbleBee]

So, you went to a friend and she accused you of wanting attention?!
Thats the last thing you wanted! You just wanted a friend to talk to. I bet that very same person would tell everyone they're a good listener and a good friend. Maybe you should try telling another friend, one you can trust. If you can tell us all about it, please find the courage to tell them.
Also, go back to the GP, even find another one, perhaps a woman as they're generally more sympathetic.

[Mindless all the way]

One additional point... when I was depressed I realised that some people were sniggering at me because of it. This got me down even more, and led to a vicious circle appearing.

I found a way out of it, which I accept doesn't work for everyone. I decided that these people weren't worth my worry. They don't know me, and have absolutly no right to judge me if I am not bothering them. Therefore, now when anyone laughs at me or insults me without due cause I simply ignore them, safe in the knowledge that they are most probably worthless pieces of shit.

I find ignoring the problem does make it go away, and its worth a try, but its not always easy.